little nervous.

Done school for a while. Woot.

SB is coming for an 8 day visit in 2 days.

I'm nervous. I shouldn't be. I still am.

It's just been SO long since we've seen each other.

Up late. But not that late.

My circadian rhythm still hasn't reset itself so i'm up at the oddest hours.

My best friend came to visit for the weekend which was absolutely fantastic.  Highlight's: lots of asian food- Chinese and Vietnamese, A scary black pimp/ drug dealer touched my ass on the street EEEW! Catch phrase, amazing french fries in cones, the culture boat, and a million hours of talk by the fire, melding 'life friends' with school friends.

Another year went by.  In celebration I had a sushi party. Feeling a bit old- but I have too much work to worry about it.

Didn't make any resolutions as such just want to make sure I take advantage of where I am. I worry I'm not doing that to my fullest ability.  Maybe i expect too much from myself though.  Wouldn't be that outlandish a thought.

Something perfectly fitting

After hours of taping white sheets of A4 paper to my walls the end is still nowhere in sight.  During this, and in order not avoid boring myself to death- the decorating process is tedious- I've been listening to podcasts of 'this american life.' You should all check it out.  In the most recent episode there was one fictional story that seemed to speak perfectly, or at least similarly (if i had any idea what exactly i am feeling about the way i would like things to go in the near future), to the situation I'm in right now with SB.  The story was told in first person about a man tallying up the cost in monetary terms with the benefits of travelling to see a woman in his life.  He speaks about the way he feels when he is around this girl or when he's not around her.  He isn't weighing the costs and benefit against each other he is merely determining the raw cost to him of the time he spends with her... its a bit odd, but i like it.  Although thats appears as the foreground of the story its just a subtext for him expressing what he's feeling for this girl, or maybe more how and what the girl makes him feel.

There are no games with SB (well as little game play as possible) all my other relationships have been about that and about strategizing.  Now I'm trying to pull a George  (see: seinfeld) and do the opposite of everything i think is the right to do.  However, this story will blatantly break my pattern. First instincts said i should send it to him so he could hear and appreciate what i thought were similarities between the ideal way our weekend may go.  But secondary thought tells me its too much too soon.  Maybe he doesn't have the same ideas as me and its just not the right time.

and now i'm abroad

Flight was easy, watched nick and nora’s infite playlist- thought the one ‘sex’ scene was really interesting, i’d never seen that in a movie- totally cute.
Ocean’s 13, a movie i always wanted to see but never got around to and was really happy i waited because it was quite distracting. Although Soderbergh need to learn to use high key lighting, some of your movies are good they would be better if you could see them.

Took a long 9 hour much needed nap and now i’m just organizing my life here, it was so nice getting back to my room even though i left it in a bit of a shambles.

Leaving on a jetplane

Things to do before 3pm flight to europe- clean the house, pack, send mail etc.
next post will be from across the sea.

Everyone is someplace hot but me

My brother returned from his trip to some tropical climate with his best friend early this morning and he had a fantastic time.

The parents left for their hot climate and now we have the house to ourself...party? well just few friends over later. Its too bloody cold to do anything interesting.

Highschool parties: look hot: check, get drunk- check, be an ass-check, talk to boys and girls you were not cool enough or too cool to talk to 5 years earlier. The hangover was monstrous though.

You know your home when a third of your waking hours are spent at a starbucks

Today consisted of spending some quality time with my favorite beverage establishment.
Spent 3 hours meeting up with various friends and surfing free internet at Starbucks.
Went to sushi with a few of the girls, one of which i hadn’t even seen on vacation because of our conflicting schedules. I think i quashed a bit of drama because i should have made more of an effort to see certain people then i had, but its so difficult when your only home for a very short period of time and its also the middle of my semester now so im also working on papers and things...

I have a party which will consist of highschool people to go to tonight, it should prove to be quite interesting. Certain people will be there whom i will have to make nice to who i haven't spoken to in over 18 months.