Something perfectly fitting

After hours of taping white sheets of A4 paper to my walls the end is still nowhere in sight.  During this, and in order not avoid boring myself to death- the decorating process is tedious- I've been listening to podcasts of 'this american life.' You should all check it out.  In the most recent episode there was one fictional story that seemed to speak perfectly, or at least similarly (if i had any idea what exactly i am feeling about the way i would like things to go in the near future), to the situation I'm in right now with SB.  The story was told in first person about a man tallying up the cost in monetary terms with the benefits of travelling to see a woman in his life.  He speaks about the way he feels when he is around this girl or when he's not around her.  He isn't weighing the costs and benefit against each other he is merely determining the raw cost to him of the time he spends with her... its a bit odd, but i like it.  Although thats appears as the foreground of the story its just a subtext for him expressing what he's feeling for this girl, or maybe more how and what the girl makes him feel.

There are no games with SB (well as little game play as possible) all my other relationships have been about that and about strategizing.  Now I'm trying to pull a George  (see: seinfeld) and do the opposite of everything i think is the right to do.  However, this story will blatantly break my pattern. First instincts said i should send it to him so he could hear and appreciate what i thought were similarities between the ideal way our weekend may go.  But secondary thought tells me its too much too soon.  Maybe he doesn't have the same ideas as me and its just not the right time.