As Promised...

Boys:
Victor- Well I actually just got back from a walk with him. History: We met, made plans. He pushed them like a million times to the point I almost hated him, then we finally went out and it was nice. Not spectacular though. Like fun, but no chemistry, none at all. Then didn’t see each other for a but still talked on MSN, sometimes we have really good talks, then the walk. We hugged goodbye. Its not as if I don’t like him or find him attractive, I ust think maybe I need to drink with him and I’ll be a little more relaxed or something. Cuz I mean obviously I have some confidence issues.

Brent- He’s older than me, he guest lectured my class, we were kinda secretly seeing eachother, (well having sleepovers) behind the backs of some of our friends for about 2.5 months. I wasn’t really that into him, I mean at least emotionally- but I guess I thought when it finally ended, I would be the one to break it off or it would just fizzle or something. But it did not. Then after a night out and several shots- About 20 minutes after grabbing me and making out with me in front of some of our friends (which was totally something we didn’t do in public, ever) he decides to say we can’t do what were ding any more because he’s more interested in some other girls he’s seeing, and that he should be focusing on his work and almost said something exactly like ‘well your 21 what did you expect?’. What was most frustrating was we had gone on a date and I stayed at his place the night before, he helped me study and he gave me a kiss goobye and was all ‘I’m gonna see you tonight right?’.So it was like he had planned to break up with me that night, and still went out with me the night before, it all seemed so contrived.

David- I ran into him right before I had to work today, I hugged him goodbye and told him to have a nice trip (he seemed surprised by the hug- I dunno, no more thinking about him)

Employment:
I sling coffee at starbucks!
I’m waiting on a job back at home (uhhh living at home) but its right up my field of work that I wanna do, but they are totally screwing me around. Theres an interviewer, and ther hireing person. My interview went great, said I would hear back in a week from the hireing person. I didn’t. So 2.5 weeks later nothing so I e-mail. The interview person tells me the hireing person is out of town and I should hear soon. Then sends me another e-mail a few days later and says I’ll know soon. Then at a conference I meet the interview person and she introduced me as ‘Mel- she’s going to be working with us this summer’, and I say ‘am i?’ and shes like oh you haven’t heard back yet, and tells me she’ll talk to the other woman. So I mean the job sounds promising, but I wanna get my damn contract already and give notice.

Vote:
Who thinks I should get facebook?
I’ve resisted thus far.

School:
I’m in summer school I should be studying but the walk with Victor made me tired (I just got home). I’m jus doing kinda not so great in the class and I wanted to get an A, or even an A-, but I’m worried I wont. I need to figure out the math soon, with what percent I need on the other parts of what goes into my mark.

Holy Crap its been a while!

So, heres the deal- i'm sorry i haven't posted in forever- its just that i always feel like i have to catch up on everything and then the task seems too argous then i get intimdated and don't do it.
But i've decided to say FUCK IT and post anyways and as I write i'll make reference to whatever needs explaining from the past 3.5 months.

So currently- I just got back from a trip to montreal for my frinds wedding. My family went too, it was fun, and apparently i get quite emotional at weddings which was odd because 'im not really like that', aside from getting a bit teary eyed when the plane lands signifiying i did not die on the flight or getting goose bumps i'm a bit unexpressive when it comes to feeling (especially the sappy kind). The wedding was nice, I decided when (if?) I have a wedding I dont want it to be like that one though. This one was all parents and friend of parents and that junk. I want my wedding small and to only have people I really care about and am close with so i can really enjoy it and not have cheesy dance and rap music playing.

As of today I (almost) dont have anything going on with any boys- This is odd since the past months have been a whirlwound/ emotional/ physical rollercoaster. But its over today- because 'David' whom you may remeber from pevious posts, was suposed to get together with me to say bye befor he left for europe indefinatly (and I was planning on giving him he first semblance of a love letter i ever wrote)- but he had to move stuff and it didn't hapen, thus my good bye e-mail (nothing like the letter) had to suffice. I said 'almost' earlier because i guess i'm kinda dating one guy, we've been on one date because of schedualing shit, but talked for like the last 1.5 months, but i don't really see myelf being that into him, but its alright to have him around when nothing is really going on- or just keeping options open and whatever- hes a whole other story though, we can call him 'Victor'. And then theres 'Brent'- also for another time (see cliff hangers will keep you coming back for more)

As food goes- i really cant summerize the past months, but the past weeks have been rediculous. I was at home (major stressor) plus my cousin who was anorexic and bulimic was over and that always kinda triggors me. Plus i was in my old washroom an just its a bad environment. I was also in airports, and airport washrooms, and fasting for like 5 days, and just crazyness. Needless to say my neck hurts like a bitch and is swollen an my mouth is in shitty shape, and i know i need help but i just can't and its frustrating and not a good way to end this post so....

I'll finish by tell you that grade-wise my last semester ROCKED I got all A's Woo me!

to come in subsequent posts:
employment
more boys
you'll have to wait and see!