I’m back at least I think I’m back.
My hiatus was… well… needed. Actually I think if I wrote over the summer, it may have been helpful but that’s neither here nor there.
Stress.
School, is only moderately hard. A PhD student I’m close with informed me that this attitude in my undergrad years is Cocky, the bad kind of cocky. But after I think she realized that comment hurt my feelings she back pedaled and said it was more like confidence and she wished at some points she could have just been confident like I am in her academic career. Moreover, what I took out of that was that the bundle of insecurities, which is me, that is so apparent to anyone who comes across this blog is incredibly well hidden from the people around me. I can be great actress. I am a great liar.
What’s really stressful is the idiot move I made by entering an abstract into a professional conference and somehow getting it accepted. Now I have to finish a paper and get it critiqued by people who know what they are talking about while I clearly am a poser fraud (see liar above)
As Well the thesis.
As Well the scholarship applications.
As Well the Masters applications.
Romance.
None. None. None. Well actually with long time friend a semi-summer romance sort of happened but nothing now. I met this very nice guy, however, nice guy’s girlfriend resides in Germany right now.
Self experimentation.
Food things are under strict control at the moment. This is good and I’m totally loving my obsessive gym going. Its something to do that doesn’t result in me feeling like shit.
Alcohol.
Its evil, if you didn’t already know. But seriously who doesn’t love to get drunk? However for reasons beyond my control my liver is unhappy, so I’m not really drinking anymore, at least until things improve. It’s made my wallet happy. You see I’m saving for a trip to Europe this summer, and I think I have enough money already but I was just informed today that my father wants me to work this summer and probably won’t be helping me pay for the trip as he previously had said he would. How expensive can it really be?
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romance is so annoying! i don't have any either. It's deffo better not getting drunk! I take it your course is pretty stressful at the moment, hope it's going alright! I haven't started mine yet, just settling into my new house! So that's why I still don't have the internet atm. I have to come to the stupid computer room miles away to use it!
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